The past can can't be undone :|
♥ 3:45 PM Friday, October 10, 2008
Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told i've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than i could bear
Though i've tried, i've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better i should know
So don't come 'round here
And tell me i told you so
We all begin with good intent
When love is raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not hea
lIt's the bitter taste of losing everything i've held so dear
I've fallenI have sunk so low
I messed up
Better i should know
So don't come 'round here
And tell me i told you so.
May naalala lang ako. Kasi kasi naman umuulan, ang sarap tuloy magdrama. HAHA :)) Naranasan niyo na ba na mawala lahat sa isang iglap yung isang bagay na sobrang inaalagaan mo? Oh kaya yung madisappoint ka sa mga tao sa paligid mo? Kung oo, ang sakit noh? Masahol pa yung feeling sa binugbog ka, bumagsak ka sa exam, nadapa ka oh kung ano pa man. Eh yung mapaniwala sa mga bagay na hindi naman pala totoo? Masakit din yun. Isa pang solido grabehan yun. HAHAHA :)) Naalala ko lang yung araw na galit na galit ako, inis na inis at nagseselos. Tapos dumating yung araw na nakapag usap kami at nagustuhan ko naman siya. Tumatakbo pa ako sa kanya nun kapag may problema ako. Sabi ko pa nga, okay naman ala siya e. Nafeel niyo na bang mainggit sa mga tao? Yung tipong "ay sana ako nalang yun" o kaya yung "ay bat ganun sila masaya, sana ako din diba? :)" Naramdaman mo na bang mamiss ang mga taong napalapit sayu nung mga oras na pinanghahawakan mo ang bagay na iyon? Naramdaman mo na bang mawalan ng tiwala sa mga taong nakikilala mo dahil sa mga nangyari sayo? Oh kaya yung magkunwari sa lahat na ang saya saya mo kahit na sobrang iiyak ka na pala. Sinu bang niloloko mo, ibang tao, o ang sarili mo?
Pano kung kunwari dumating yung araw na makita mo sila sa harap mong sobrang saya. Makakaya mo kaya? Ano kayang magiging reaksyon mo sa ganun noh? Kasi ang sabi ng mga tao, hindi sila, hindi magiging sila. Pero bakit iba ang nakikita mo? Iiyak ka ba, tatakbo, o magkukunwari nanaman?

Sana hindi siya sa iba nakatingin noh?
Labels: hayayay
Good mood, good day :)
♥ 11:23 PM Thursday, October 9, 2008
My mood's good today. Hahaha. For the first time since
I can't remember, I was able to sleep for about 8hrs. The moment and the feeling was priceless! XD I actually didn't want to wake up this morning. I just felt like curling up on my bed :) I didn't attend my thesis class today since I haven't done my revisions yet. And naturally, I don't have anything to pass. So I saved my energy and money of travelling from Las Piñas to Manila.
I still left though. I went to SM to buy some stuff. It's a good thing Pot accompanied me there. If not for him, I'd be looking like a poor puppy roaming the mall
alone. Just having to imagine the scene makes my wanna laugh hard. HAHAHAHA :)) I was hoping to have my papers bound but apparently the copytrade in SM doesn't offer that service. So I just looked for things I'd use this Sunday for my cosplay :) Oh and just so you know, I asked permission to my mom already and she said yes! Oh the joyyyyy :) Which is why I'm trying this hard to finish everything by Sunday. I wouldn't want any hindrance on that special day. As soon as I got home, I had my 1on1 session with the readings on Congress. And dang there are lots to memorize. Gaah. I don't like politics. And right now, I'm having a wrestle with my thesis. HAHA :)) Add the PA132 paper to that. Come to think of it I might just finish that one too tonight :)
I thought of someone just an hour ago. :)
Blahblahblah.
Happy Birthday Ate Nat :) I miss you. Hehe :)
Labels: cosplay, funny, hurray
What I get from stress.
♥ 8:34 PM Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I've been having a really unpleasant mood since this morning. I nearly cried on the dining table this morning just because my mom kept asking me questions and I didn't want her doing that. I was too tired from doign all the school works these previous nights. And then, I got really mad at my sister for sending the message to a different recipient; that being my mom. My mom interrogated me before I left for school this morning which made me irritated
again.I thought I was late for my 9am class. Well I know that I'm already late since the busses were yet again stalled at the LaSalle area of Manila. It really gets on my nerves having to wait for 20mins just to get past LaSalle. It consumes a lot of time, and makes me more stressed :/.
I arrived at school around 9:30 am.
Surprise surprise, my professor was not there yet. In fact she came in around 10:30. The waiting didn't make me irritated or something. I just wished that I didn't leave the house that early with the hopes of catching up.
My speech is finally done. At least I can cross that out on my to-do list. But still I feel so drained. RAR.
Sa totoo lang kaya ako ganito dahil naiinis na talaga ako sa mga taong sinasabing snob ako. Dinadagdagan niyo ang inis ko sa araw araw. Ang dami ko na ngang ginagawa, ddramahan niyo pa ako. Ano baaaaa? Bukas tuloy ayaw ko na magparamdam sa kahit sino sainyo. Lalo na sa mga taong hindi makaintindi ng salitang busy. Try niyo, palit tayu ng posisyon kung hindi kayo mangarag diyan. Labels: inis
The return :)
♥ 6:25 PM Monday, October 6, 2008
...of Leny! HAHAHA. I once left blogger and here I am coming back :P I missed having a separate site for my rants and what-have-yous. I just hope that I'd be able to update this as much as I update my multiply and my friendster.
Anyhoo, I was reading my previous entries and I read a couple of errors. Sorry for that. I'm too lazy to edit them anyway. HAHAHA.
How have I been? I've been pretty great lately. Just a little stressed. No make that really stressed. But I can keep up with it, well for now :) I've been lazier than ever. Eversince my laptop crashed I didn't felt like recovering the files I had there. So goodbye to all the songs, videos, games and pictures. Hurts like hell to lose all of those.
So basically I have to do a lot of things. But look at me blogging all the way. HAHAHA. Slap me please? :P
Labels: return leny