I could barely sleep that May 31 morning [around 2am] because I was dead nervous about the cosplay event that will be held at 10am, at the SMX Convention. I got up from bed around 7am and I saw this (no number) that called twice around 5am. I was again puzzled because that number has called me for like 6 times already during the past week. I sent a text message to someone whom I assumed could be the caller. I got down and I wasn't barely able to eat my breakfast. I finished packing my costume and fixing my hair around 9:30. We rode the car and left the house. To my mom's dismay (yeah instead of mine), coastal road was erm very crowded that morning. It was pretty unusual because it is not all the time that I encounter such crowdedness on a Saturday morning. My mom was panicking because she's fearing that I might be late. I called Az and she said that they were already on the queue, a very long one to be exact. At long last, we were there at the vicinity. As the car slowly approaches the SMX convention, the line of people was seen. And I feared that I might not get to see where Frances and Az were. I walked and see the faces staring at me. As if I were a lost kid looking for her parents. And at one glance, there they were; Az and Frances were like 5 footsteps away from me. I saw them, yay for me! We waited, and waited and waited untill finally we got in! As we waited to get past the guards, someone called my up. Tried to prank call me but then I mentioned that name of the person that I sent the text message. He laughed and said yes, it was him who called up. He wanted me to accompany him and I said I can't 'coz I'm there in Mall of Asia. I then suggested that he come to MoA. I didn't know he was really serious that he was going. He said he was gonna be there. And so were able to get past the guards, we bought tickets, went through the girls line and got our stamps. Wowee, the hall was huge and it was filled with all sorts of anime stuff! The people wearing their costumes all looked good. My orginal plan was to harass some cosplayers there but I wasn't successful with that *evil laugh* Around 1pm I received a text message saying "Len, andito na ko nasan ka?" I went outside the SMX convention looked around and then he called me. There he was sitting on a balcony, smiling at me. I was happy to see him again. From then on, he was like my only company. We both walked around, together. He held me tight just like the old times. He held my bag and held anything I was holding whenever someone asks to take a picture of me. I felt safe and happy that moment. I missed havong someone to laugh with. I remember his reactions whenever someone would ask to take a picture of me or whenever someone would look at me. We were looking for Az and Frances because I lost them. Haha! So anyway, he said he was hungry and I didn't know that there was food sold in the hall. So we gout out of SMX convention. Went in MoA and walked from end to end. I felt really shy 'coz people were looking at me. And I know they're wondering why I'm dressed like that. Haha! I was so embarassed I just laughed. Hahahaha! When we went back, we finally saw Az and company. I was glad! Though my feet really hurt. Gah. We all laughed and had really so much fun! Time flies so fast that I barely noticed it was nearly 5pm. So I bid my friends goodbye because I went home with him. At the shuttle, we talked about some things and I felt the need to be there for him. I was really worried about him and I know the words that I said to him clearly contained that worry I felt. I just told him that everything will be alright for him in the end. And that I'll be here when he needs someone to confide with.


That night I cried... I missed him, yes I did. And I still do but I felt that things are different. I remember the time when he held my hand. I was behind him then and I looked at him and I wondered what I would do. I didn't know if I should hold his too, or just leave my hand that way. And right then and then I realized that I'm better off as his friend and nothing more. The feeling's weird 'coz it's new; it's surprsing. I can look straight into his eyes without even feeling like crying. What suddenly happened to me, to us?


Just this morning I was disappointed because I knew what he was still doing. And really I don't know when things are gonna change for him. To whoever: Again, if you want a quiet life, leave all of the lies. Be true to everyone and yourself. Take care of yourself, love yourself more if you can. I'm always here for you and I know you know that. You seem happy with her, stay happy then :) Uulitin ko sinabi ko sayo. Iisa ka lang sa 6 na bilyon, wag mo sayangin buhay mo. Huwag mong hintayin na magsisi ka, ha? Meron ka mang kapangalan sa ibang lugar, hindi parin ikaw yun!

To Az, Frances, Glemn, Juliet and OMAKE, sobrang thank you! I had so much fun you don't even know how much :) See you in the coming events. I LOVE YOU!